I am grateful you not only enjoyed this post but that you also see the transparency in it. This is what I have in mind while the words are pouring through my fingers on the keyboard. I subconsciously put myself in the readers mind and see what they’re reading.

Your heart is telling you the truth. If it tells you the wipe the slate clean, then it’s the right thing because your inner spirit knows what’s in your future. Despite the past where you felt moderate levels of success, you are being prepared for something greater. This is why your heart is telling you to wipe the slate clean. This can be a time of great healing and rejuvenation. While change is scary, it can be quite invigorating and life-changing.

I know exactly what you’re feeling when you say “But what? What do I really want to do?” Believe it or not, I’m exactly in that position right now! Yes, even after years of professional speaking. I’m now taking a “sabbatical” of sorts where I’ve been spending time re-evaluating where I want to go, what I want to do and finding ways of creating a lasting legacy where my work will outlast me. That’s ultimately what I want to do.

I was happy to have you “ramble” as you say. I love heartfelt comments like yours and I want you to know I hear you. I have been where you are now and continue to find myself there from time to time so rest assured you are not alone.

We seem to be on the same wavelength in terms of the way we think and hope. That’s quite comforting! We are not so alone, after all.

I enjoyed your post and your honesty. While I am still working right now, I always think that the end could be near. Especially after getting laid of twice in two years in the mid-2000′s. Then I think to myself, if my job disappeared, what would I do? Nearing 40, I don’t feel like I’ve ever experienced “success” in my career, whether it is success defined by me or success defined by society. Would I pursue another “marketing” job with hopes for finally finding career and personal satisfaction? My heart tells me it is time for me to wipe the slate clean…do something very different. But what? What do I really want to do? I would love to earn a living speaking to an audience. Since joining Toastmasters, I have improved from my normal shy demeanor. But I need to get better. A lot better to make a living speaking.

I am sorry to ramble Stephen. I do enjoy your blog and admire you. I just wanted to say your post is pretty timely for me, too. This is a pretty strange time in my life, as well. Maybe it is the economy or the fact that I will turn 40 in a couple months. I think these times of reflection and isolation are good. Like you, I feel a great sense of possibility at what is ahead. Take care.

Tim

Ah, I see, thanks for the powerful clarification! Makes sense.

Yes, when it appears nothing is going on, there are “behind the scenes” things happening that we might not be aware of. That’s true. And it’s often a surprise when we find out what’s been going on “behind the scenes”!

Looking back, I’ve written some “To-Do” lists for the day on my calendar for example like when I was a stockbroker at Merrill Lynch. I still have the calendar in storage from those days. I would write what I needed to do that day and then check them off, one by one. But the interesting thing was I never set a monthly goal for how much I would make. It got to the point where I was pulling in $30,000 a month! And that’s without setting a goal.

I did, however, have a vision of winning sales trips and so I learned how to harness the power of visualization but never really set goals.

A ton of books from motivational gurus have been telling us to set goals. I’m now begging to differ.

I’m delighted you enjoy my style of writing and that you think you will continue to enjoy reading what I have to say. Thanks Randy!

Hey there! Nice to hear from you after a while.

Haha, you wish beer and diet coke could be “raw” foods! You’re funny.

Hope all is well with you down in Fla and look forward to staying in touch with you throughout the year.

Michael Werner

You are AMAZING! Like the others, you have a unique perspective on things that seem to match exactly what is happening. Your talent is articulating from the heart what you observe to be happening. Too bad we aren’t next door neighbors! I’d be a guest almost every day!

You’re right – I sure did make a lot of shifts in the fourth quarter last year. I never thought of my canvas being blank but it sounds about right. I must have been wiping the slate clean without realizing it. Hmm….

Yes, I am definitely at peace with it and I’m grateful for it. Otherwise I’d be all worried and gotten myself in a tizzy over nothing. I believe you when you say my heart will tell me the next right move – one that will be genuine and in line with my life purpose that will help make the world a better place to be.

God is fast tracking me? I love that one! Thanks again for your words of wisdom. Wouldn’t it be cool if I were neighbors with some of the people who leave frequent and heartfelt comments here? That would be a great community! But since all of us are far apart, we’ll have to “make-do” here at Adversity University.

Sounds like you are remodeling your life and maybe even reinventing yourself. Enjoy this cocooning process and take very good care of yourself as you go through “shedding skin” and what no longer serves you.

Actually I think how you’re feeling is normal after all of the shifts you made in the fourth quarter of the year. The old stuff won’t work anymore because you are a new person now and won’t be able to fit into the former mold of yourself as good as that was. A new horizon is calling out to you…

Now you’re experiencing a new and improved version of yourself and your canvas is blank, ready to be painted as you feel the urge to color in your new world. Transition…is where you are…not where or who you were and not exactly who and what you’re going to be. I love that you are at peace with it and recognize it as a very good thing!

I went through that last year after coming back from a life changing event, but the road did rise up to meet me later in the year and I find that I am squarely on my divine pathway.

Soon your heart will tell you the next right move to make…and it will be a “true” move, congruent with your life purpose and beneficial to the world. Look forward to making leaps this year instead of going step by step. God is fast tracking you!

Sending you love and strength for the journey.
Sharmaine